I found an old journal entry (well, 7 months old...)

Feb 18, 2009

I'm standing here alone
Maybe not quite standing
Maybe not alone
My nature makes things foggy
Would You release me
Get me out of this pit
Break these chains
That I know so well
Deceptively desirable
Deceptively stronger
Honestly overwhelming
Easier to just ignore
Bringing joy to the deceiver
And shame to my Redeemer
This is not what I want
Cut my heart open
Pour the Light of Truth in
Clearing up all confusion
Making gray black or white
Rise up inside me
Shine forth with blinding light
Let not one miss
This testimony to who You are
My refuge
I will continually come
For when I am weak
You say that You are strong